freak my new guitar string broke. and it was brand new, from the US and gold plated too. D= and it died before i could use it. =((( booooo

omg i feel like crying D= D=

piano and cello exam today! and omgomg crap i screwed up so badly i seriously feel like crying when i think of all the money that went into this. and all the stuff i could have done, praced more, be less nervous, read the freaking syllabus paper to at least know what's coming out -.-

went in for piano. examiner was a woman, which somewhat dented my confidence cos i wanted a nice lenient angmoh guy. she marvelled at the stupid abrsm board putting both examinations together. then did piano scales. fumbled a bit, but overall ok. but last time i thought i was ok in grade 3 the examiner didn't think so.
pieces went ok, didn't play wrong notes or anything. but the dynamics were horrible. the piano was hard to control D= and aural. -.- melody part was ok, might have been out of tune. i messed up sight singing D= she had to correct me. and she didn't play the song excerpt twice D= so i couldn't get the time of the piece D= so i simply said triple time -.-

by the time it was over i was seriously freaked out. so when i went out to get my cello, i didn't recognise my accompanist at all -.- i just thought she was some other candidate until she started talking to me and passed me a cello. and when i went in i was stoned and thought we would do scales first, so my accompanist had to do all the talking for me and even tell me to open the book.

the cello exam went like shit. i should have read that syllabus paper mr lee gave me :'(
examiner asked for G minor. Which i had no idea was tested. and thus i didn't prac it -.- i made it up on the spot and duh it was wrong. then she asked for d minor apperggio. which i didn't know either -.- i literally begged her for another one. and she insisted that i try so i did, but of course it was wrong D= and then A flat minor apperggio. i played A flat major -.- omgomgomg so screwed larh. the only one that went well was probably C major. and she asked for all in seperate bows, when i praced all in slurs cos i thought if i can play slur sure can play seperate. turns out im wrong D= only part that went right was diminished seventh. she said, "diminished seventh, starting on D, slurred." (my reaction: SLURRED?!?!?!?!?! *plays horribly, asks to play again, played horribly again)
examiner: oh sorry i shouldn't have asked for that. play it again seperate. so it was the only one i could play D=

and ms sharon said that during my pieces i was so so nervous. and i thought i was quite relaxed o.o so all my notes must have sounded really tensed D= and i actually thought it was ok cos i thought i was quite in tune D= and the aural was so so horrible. my brain had shut down, so i couldn't remember the melody, i didn't catch the timing for the piece again and i couldn't sing an F#.

i'll be glad to pass my cello -.- and i'm hoping to somehow get a merit for piano. thinking about the cello exam makes me wanna cry :'( i can't stop thinking about the damn syllabus. if i ever take cello exam again, i'll start pracing earlier. and that's a promise.

The post on Japan will take a little longer I guess =D But meanwhile...


Miura Haruma! =DD

Why can't tohoshinki come singapore D=

The 3rd Live tour T is only in japan X(((

But the 22nd single Beautiful you's coming out XDDD