Semi-recovered from a severe bout of gastric flu. I think that the high fever practically fried my brains. The second night i really went mad. Either i was dreaming i was having a nightmare or something, cos now i don't even know if i really did such weird things or not. Apparently i woke up in the middle of the night, had this sudden realisation that i accumulated an incredibly huge debt i would never be able to repay. and i panicked. so i started shouting and ran to the kitchen where my mum was yelling for help. then when my mum tried to bring me back to bed i sat down on the floor and clutched my head. then it happened again later. this time i woke my mum up and she had to keep massaging my head. and i didn't dare to go back to sleep until much later. now i dunno if i dreamt all this or not, cos my mum didn't mention it at all, and now it seems abit too ridiculous. but it seems so realistic too. now i think i got amnesia or something. i can't remember what i was about to do or what i was thinking of. =(( i think my brains has been addled. can't even think properly. and today i can finally eat proper food without throwing up, even though i still feel like. must be because of that jab i got. but my stomach feels bloated even after eating abit. my mum says must be because there's suddenly food in there after two whole days without properly digesting food without hurling it back up. and suddenly everything i want to do lost its appeal. even the electric guitar. the thought of playing it loudly, which i relished before this, makes me giddy. damn i wanna recover faster. why is it everytime im sick, i have to be really severely ill with an extremely high fever that always burns up my brain so that i can't think properly.

now i can't even remember what i wanted to do on the comp.